The truth is I just couldn't handle it anymore. It was a long time ago now, and it's not so much of a problem anymore, but I stopped writing here for a reason. I'd always wanted to keep a dream journal, and this was my favourite of any of the blogs I have or have had. But I was haunted in my sleep. Different situations, but the same face. I think I mentioned it a couple times here, and implied that it frightened me. I talked to KC about the dreams, and called them "nightmares." Except, I lied when I said I didn't recognize the dark figure, and what was scary was that it seemed so right. Inexplicably, it felt like home. So, I stopped writing my dreams. I stopped paying attention to them and eventually, I began to hardly remember them anymore. It was good for awhile. That is something my mother is not happy about. Truthfully, neither am I.
Sunday, September 02, 2007
Everybody dreams, but many don't remember them. I, however, have been haunted by dreams my entire life. A multitude of types of dreams.
I've had the ones that just summarize recent events in life. I've dreamt in black and white. I've dreamt in colour. I've had dreams where I'm observing events as an outsider and ones where it seems I'm actually there. I've had good dreams and nightmares. I've had these weird dreams where it feels like I'm wide awake and surrounded by spirits. I've watched movies in my sleep. I don't have too many sex dreams, but there are a few, and I dream of masturbation, sometimes I wonder if I AM masturbating as I sleep. I've dreamt about people before meeting them and buildings and places without being in them. I've had dreams come true word for word and recurring dreams. I've had realistic ones and bizarre, abstract ones.
I've flown and floated in my sleep, sometimes losing control so I end up stuck to the ceiling. And just so you know, if you dream of falling off a cliff or something, you don't die when you hit the ground. I've survived it more than once.
For these reasons and more, I have decided to keep a dream journal.
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